Friday, October 14, 2011

My greatest accomplishments are sometimes my greatest sorrows.

As my kids are getting older and taking on new roles for themselves, I really have had much contemplation on my greatest role as being their mother. I have sorrow for my older ones as they have been my lab rats in the sense that everything was practiced on them first. I find myself a much better and patient mother to my younger ones than I was to my older ones. I am grateful for repentance and forgiveness, as I try and become better today than I was yesterday. My greatest joys and sorrows have been because of my wonderful and beautiful children.
I wonder what I can do better today than I did yesterday? I feel so much that they have got to be valiant and strong and so do I as their mother. They are being raised in enemy territory with so much of the world pulling at them. I need to make my home a place of refuge and peace. Sometimes that is hard but I have got to be willing to do better daily.
I came across some amazing quotes that I would love to share. They have really helped me have the desire to do better and not get so down on myself when my children choose to go astray.

"Let the father and mother, who are members of this Church and Kingdom, take a righteous course, and strive with all their might never to do a wrong, but to do good all their lives; if they have one child or one hundred children, if they conduct themselves towards them as they should, binding them to the Lord by their faith and prayers, I care not where those children go, they are bound up to their parents by an everlasting tie, and no power of earth or hell can separate them from their parents in eternity; they will return again to the fountain from whence they sprang."
(Brigham Young, Journal of Discourses, 11:215)

Another one that I really liked.
A successful parent is one who has loved, one who has sacrificed, and one who
has cared for, taught, and ministered to the needs of a child. If you have done all of these and your child is still wayward or troublesome or worldly, it could well be that you are, nevertheless, a successful parent. Perhaps there are children who have come into the world that would challenge any set of parents under any set of circumstances. Likewise, perhaps there are others who would bless the lives of, and be a joy to, almost any father or mother. My concern today is that there are parents who may be pronouncing harsh judgments upon themselves and may be allowing these feelings to destroy their lives, when in fact they have done their best and should continue in faith. (Howard W. Hunter, Conference Report, October 1983)

I hope to do better, be better and rely on the Holy Ghost to help me be the best parent I can be.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

My husband

I was reading a blog of a man who lost his wife a few months ago. He was going on about all the things that his wife did that he never realized until she was gone. It made me realize how truly grateful I am for my husband and I wanted to write it down.
Can I just say I am one blessed woman. I have a really good husband. I am spending forever with a man I still get butterflies with when I see him. I enjoy spending my time with him, talking to him about my triumphs and my sorrows. He is a righteous man who honors his priesthood. He is a great father who tries to teach by example. We have grown together in so many ways. I just love him! I am thankful for the advice and wisdom he shares with me to help me become a better person. I understand the wisdom in the counsel the Lord gives to cleave unto your spouse and none else. This year we celebrate 20 years of marriage. I know that is just a drop in the bucket of time that we have together. He is my best friend.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

this affected me greatly today

I was reading 2 Nephi chapter 4 and it really affected me greatly. Oh my! What an amazing chapter this is. I so can identify with Nephi's feelings here. He is upset because of the weakness of his flesh and giving into sin and temptation. I had such feelings of sadness as I read this because I feel the same way lots of times. I have such a desire to do good but allow my human side to get in the way. I have listed in my mind many things that I want to work on to be better but fall short and I don't do them.
I want to be better at making sure our family is reading our scriptures. I want to be better at exercising. I want to be better about not speaking bad about people who I have chosen to be offended by or thinking bad about them too. I have a great desire to do better and be better. My actions affect so many more people than just myself. I have just got to try and do better today and take it one day at a time.
I love how Nephi says "Awake my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice O my heart and give place no more for the enemy of my soul. Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the rock of my salvation."
Those scriptures bring me great peace. It brings hope to me.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Aubrey's married

So, I have crossed one of those big moments in my life, I am now a mother in law. I've got to confess that when I first found out that Aubrey was engaged, there were a few temper tantrums on my part. I really went through the process of he is not good enough for her. She needs to wait a few more years and so on.
But, I am thankful to say that I am happy she is happy. Does that sound cliche? It is true though. It is fun to watch them start their new married life together, to remember some of my own experiences through theirs.

This life is ever changing and I am thankful for the constant learning that each new phase of my life presents.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Random thoughts on a "good clean Saturday"

I love the smell of Pinesol. I'm not sure what it is about this smell but I love it. Saturday is "good clean day" as we call it at my house and so on this day my house smells like Pinesol.If you could give smells an emotion it would be a happy smell for me.

Not much better than listening to Pandora U2 radio while cleaning. It just makes me want to dance while making my house spic and span.

Have you ever smelt Mrs. Meyers Basil scent household cleaner? It smells so good. Every time I use it, I almost want to lick the counter.

At the end of the day it's such a good feeling to have a clean house top to bottom and to know that the whole family pitched in to make it this way!!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


I know this movie is quite a few years old. But, I saw it for the first time the other night. It was so good. It really brought up lots of emotion about my own Father's death. There are things that I wish were different after my Dad died. I really wish that he was not cremated. In the back of my mind he is still living in Arizona. It is hard to say good bye to ashes. It is hard for me to get finality with it. I really miss him oh so very much. I miss the big, strong hugs that he would give when he would see me. Even after I was an adult, when he would hug me I felt like I did when I was young.
I know its been 2 1/2 years but sometimes it is still so hard..
But, if you want to see a good movie and haven't seen this one, I recommend it.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Reminded once again

I am reminded once again of the importance of temple attendance. I came across this great talk by John H. Groberg and I wanted to share some things from it.
You Are Invited spend a half day (or even a full day) in the temple each month Here is what monthly temple participation will do for you:

1. If a man, you will become mighty; if a woman, powerful. (D&C 109:22)
2. It will serve as great "insurance protection" for your marriage. (D&C 132:19)
3. The blessings of the Eternal Gods will be called down upon you, and       great spiritual growth will be yours.     (D&C 109: 12&14)
4. Unseen angels will watch over your loved ones when Satanic forces tempt them. (Acts 27:23)
5. Your families will draw close to the Lord and there will be no empty chairs in the Celestial Kingdom.   (Hymn #301)
6. Your children will all go on missions. (D&C 109:58)
7. You children will get married in the temple.   (Conference Talks)
8. The veil will be thin, you will have great spiritual growth, and many spiritual experiences will distill upon you.      (D&C 138)
9. You will be prepared for exaltation--with a celestial body, a celestial mind, and a celestial personality.        (3 Nephi 12-20, 3 )
10. You will become receptive to divine guidance and you will receive spiritual perception to help you grapple with your problems and cares. (D&C 38:30)   (D& C 3:1-3)
11. You will see clearly how to make critical decisions that weigh heavily on your mind.    (D&C (109:42)
12. You will become Christlike.     (D&C 109:22-25)

What a blessing for me to have so many temples close by. I am committing to myself to go more often.

Thursday, February 17, 2011


I feel like my days have become monotonous.
Every morning my alarm goes off at 6:45. I get Devin and Haylee up for school. I help Haylee get ready and send her out the door at 7:30. I than wake up Jerin at 7:45. Take him to school at 8:25.
I come home and start the dishes, feed Adalyn breakfast, put a load of laundry in the washer. I take a shower. Than I bathe Adalyn. On Mondays I grocery shop. Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays I babysit most of the day for other people. On Fridays I work as a lunchlady at Jerin's school.
Now, I'm not complaining. I feel very blessed to be able to stay home with my kids. I love my job as a mom. I'm just saying sometimes it is so uniform. I'm always so excited when I get an invitation to lunch or something. I just think I need to add a little more variety to my schedule.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

My birthday

It was a great day today. I woke up this morning feeling rested. I had a good night sleep. Adalyn hasn't been feeling well. She had a double ear infection and she seems to get teeth in groups of four. So, she has had a miserable month and hasn't been sleeping well. But, last night was a little bit different. Anyway, I am grateful that I woke up feeling rested.
I than went and got my hair cut and colored. I haven't done this since September and was looking really gray. I can't believe all the gray hair that I have. I am to young for this.
Than my beautiful sister Amber took me out for Sushi.. We love sushi!

While I was gone for lunch, a beautiful bouquet of flowers was delivered from my sweet daughter Aubrey. I really miss her.
I than came home and my other sister Monica had brought me a beautiful cake. Oh my goodness, it was heavenly!
We ended the evening with taking the kids to one of my favorite places to eat, Cafe Rio. I love my Pork Salad.
The only thing that got me down today was the resignation of Jerry Sloan, the coach of the Utah Jazz.

My heart broke and I shed a tear or two. What are we ever going to do without him?
Almost a perfect day.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Just one of those times

I am sitting here going through blogs, reading about different lives. I am thankful that I am able to get glimpses about what people are doing, about how they live their lives. Doing this, has really made me miss all my loved ones that are gone.
I was reading my friend Carmen's blog. She has a picture of her brother who reminds me of my brother Joel. Oh! how I miss him. I just long to see him, to talk to him.So much has gone on since he left us. I wonder what he thinks of all of this. I would love to ask him. Joel! I miss you.

he is such a handsome man!

I went to my Uncle Ricky's house the day that Aubrey left to NY and sat and talked with him. He looks so much like my dad. I couldn't help but just stare at him. He even has some of the same mannerisms. OH! how I would love to talk to my dad about my latest adventures in basketball. Every time I step out on the court to coach I think of him.

he was my coach through all my elementary years. I loved it.

This was taken in Mesa. We went and visited him in March before he died.

I just read a post on my cousin Kim's blog about my grandma Dean. I miss her so much. I miss the little things like cards in the mail that I could always count on getting. I miss going to her home and knowing that we would probably have frozen pizza and root beer floats. I love that she loved her great-grandkids just as much as her grandkids.

I am so blessed to call her my grandma

So, this really doesn't happen very often. But, tonight I just miss them.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

My latest find

I am reading a great book right now called Why Gender Matters by Leonard Sax. I continue to be amazed about how the things that I seem to need most in my life come to me. I give all my thanks to my Heavenly Father for that, as he seems to know me and exactly what will help me out at that time in my life. I would recommend this to any parent raising a child. I've loved the amazing insights and knowledge I've attained. Hopefully it will help me be a better parent.